Remember me and smile

This week I have been reminded that we all have demons, and I think it is good to have demons as they remind you of things you may want to change, things you wish never to relive and they give you the edge. I think someone wise once said that you should do something everyday that scares you, because sometimes being scared reminds you that you are alive.

Tonight, I am happy to admit is the eve of one of the days that will haunt me forever. I am not going to say what because I think the ones who know me the best will know what I am talking about. I had a wobby in the week, because I have been running around trying to live a mad life the last few weeks and I probably not been appreciating friends and family enough, which I feel really bad about.  Anyway the wobby was, what if no one remembers her. Remember this wonderful person, who gave me courage and a place where I fitted in. There is not a day when I don't think about her and want to share my life. What can I say I miss my mum.

Then I remembered the most important thing in the world - if you love some one, they never really leave you, because they leave a foot print on your life that will always be there. Somedays it will make you laugh and other day it will make you cry, but whatever happens in your life, if you have love, there will always be a path way forward in what ever direction you take.  I leave tonight with a poem that is a take on a famous one,

I will remember you
When bluebird flys, and my heads in the clouds,
And I am living my dreams in a cloud free sky
I will remember the days you helped me to walk

I will remember you
When it thunders and rains, and nothing is bright
In the bleakest dark night, where nothing seems right,
I will search for the light and I will remember you.

When I look at my book, and start to believe that
It should all be firewood,
I will keep the ink going
And I will remember you.

You're in my smile, you're in my tears
You still listen to my fears
And when I whisper I love you into the wind
I know somehow those words you'll hear

I will remember you and I will smile
I will be strong because I knew you
And I got to be part of you life
And part of you lives on in me.

A biazzare top ten

The words aren't coming today so I'll just post the following:

(1) A motivation quote

"Within each person is the potential to build the empire of her wishes, but don't allow anyone to say that you can't have it all. You can - you can have it all..."
Estee Lauder (1908-2004)

(2) Don't mess with the past.. especially in Literature.
I still can't believe that Mark Twain has been rewritten for schools in America. I cannot believe anyone would mess with a classic. Some words aren't nice,but they have a place in history to remind us of what society was like. 

(3) Even when things seem familar, every day is new
Sometimes it can be hard not to believe that you are falling into the same places and faces again. But always remember, that every day you live - the experiences changes, and just because situations are the same, you aren't the same person as you were the last time around.

(4) Believe in love

(5) Find a good music song and use it as your theme tune. I have over 2,000 themes to my life.

(6) There is a time when all the 'to dos' or "I was just about to start" have to actually be done.

(7) Time management can be tendious and fun at the same time.

(8) Go and see the King's speech and remember how important it is to everyone to have a voice.

(9) Remember where you came from.

(10) If nothing else, stay true to yourself and keep believing in your dreams.

  One last quote:

"You were once wild. Don't let them tame you!"
  Isadora Duncan

Happy new year

Dissolving days

Quietness all round, another year dawning

Nothing moves, no noise, none of last night’s clatter

Nobody stirs, people sleep; shattered

Dreaming memories of the night before

Last year, never again, will open its doors.

Whenever you rise on the First you’ll hear,

Tick-tock, tick-tock, the constant tick of time

Showing no mercy, no solace, no rhyme,

Draining our lives, slipping away,

Showing too quickly how quickly we can turn grey.

Time frightens us; it lengthens the gap.

Between the places we’ve been,

And the place we’re at.

Maybe it’s true, time does take away.

A second here, a minute there.

A couple of unwanted days.

But important events are locked away

Safe from time-dissolving days

Life-changing events touch our souls

Keeping us warm when we grow old.

Memories stay vivid, never to die?

Bringing our hearts together where memories lie.

Time cannot erode memories

Give it year, a decade, memories with weather

Against periods of time if they are to measure

Memories and time will matt together.

So come this year, next and beyond

Tick time out on the ever beating drum

You can make us older, wiser and fatter.

But you cannot take the memories that matter.