Remember me and smile

This week I have been reminded that we all have demons, and I think it is good to have demons as they remind you of things you may want to change, things you wish never to relive and they give you the edge. I think someone wise once said that you should do something everyday that scares you, because sometimes being scared reminds you that you are alive.

Tonight, I am happy to admit is the eve of one of the days that will haunt me forever. I am not going to say what because I think the ones who know me the best will know what I am talking about. I had a wobby in the week, because I have been running around trying to live a mad life the last few weeks and I probably not been appreciating friends and family enough, which I feel really bad about.  Anyway the wobby was, what if no one remembers her. Remember this wonderful person, who gave me courage and a place where I fitted in. There is not a day when I don't think about her and want to share my life. What can I say I miss my mum.

Then I remembered the most important thing in the world - if you love some one, they never really leave you, because they leave a foot print on your life that will always be there. Somedays it will make you laugh and other day it will make you cry, but whatever happens in your life, if you have love, there will always be a path way forward in what ever direction you take.  I leave tonight with a poem that is a take on a famous one,

I will remember you
When bluebird flys, and my heads in the clouds,
And I am living my dreams in a cloud free sky
I will remember the days you helped me to walk

I will remember you
When it thunders and rains, and nothing is bright
In the bleakest dark night, where nothing seems right,
I will search for the light and I will remember you.

When I look at my book, and start to believe that
It should all be firewood,
I will keep the ink going
And I will remember you.

You're in my smile, you're in my tears
You still listen to my fears
And when I whisper I love you into the wind
I know somehow those words you'll hear

I will remember you and I will smile
I will be strong because I knew you
And I got to be part of you life
And part of you lives on in me.