The number 18, it is the age you officially become an adult and start taking responsibility for yourself. I suppose this weekend I am thinking about an event that changed my life and my family life forever.
How do I feel about it? It still doesn't make sense and I think I realise now that something like that will never make sense of. But it how we use the most painful points in your life and turn them from thunderous rain clouds to wonderful sunsets. It is finding that place in your life where you are happy. I think we sometimes miss that - we run around looking for our dreams and pushing ourselves for successful, that sometimes we forget to be happy in the here and now.
And today, tonight, I would like to say I am happy with my life. Yes, I have dreams, ambitions of becoming published, but if I was asked about the here and now, yes I am very happy.
My happiness comes from my friends and family who are around me, who support me and accept me for who I am. Even though I am really bad at communicating with everyone at times. It funny, the most valuable things in life, friends, happiness can often be the things we forget to measure when we are looking for things to moan about (not that I ever moan!)
So maybe the fact 18 years have by isn't something to feel blue about, and whilst I can't say I won't shed a tear or two, there will be a major part by being happy in life, is the best way to cope with the number 18.
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